Sober Saturday (stumped)

Not sure what to say at this moment. There is ever so much unrest and anger and resentment in the world right now. Apparently, there are folks out there who have been less than their best selves all this time. Here, in my tiny little world, I thought everything was fine. We all love, honor, and respect each other and want only the best for one another. Right? No? Wow.

I’m not trying to check any boxes here; I don’t have the right and it’s not my place to check boxes. I have no idea what it’s like to be on the receiving end of any kind of racism. Nope, I’m actually “too” white. I was always rejected in school for being too fair-skinned (pale); read: NOT TAN. That sweet warm tanned skin was the trademark of all the “lucky” ones. They were destined for strong friendships, popularity, success, love and romance. Or is that only in California? But then I became an adult and none of that mattered. I honestly thought that was the case for any specific trait, style or background. We become adults and none of it matters. In fact, none of it really mattered in the first place. How can that not be?

I don’t know. I have no answer.

So now what? I’m just tryin’ to stay sober. Through a pandemic and now this global upheaval. What I wouldn’t give to numb all of it with several bottles of chardonnay. I can’t. But I’ll tell you what made my heart happy today. The Fab Five. That’s right. Those 5 remarkable (and gorgeous) men from the Netflix show, Queer Eye. Lord, have mercy! They epitomize all that is good and whole and loving and authentic in this world. If only they could rule it.

Talk about checking boxes. Sexual identities (yes, I know they’re all gay, but who knows specifically how each one identifies), races, cultures, nationalities, styles, gifts, temperaments, passions, religions, backgrounds, education. They are all so different and all bring something so special and critical to the game. Kudos to the casting director. I don’t know how they all came together; I’m only on the 4th episode or so. But they are truly an outstanding ensemble of humans and a gift to us all.

Please can we just be more like them? Positive, fair, understanding, hard-working, helpful, useful, confident, considerate, (and I assume they’re all law-abiding citizens). We should all try to be our best selves and we should all want the best for one another. Just like Jonathan, Antoni, Tan, Karamo, and Bobby.

Struggs to func, I know. But let’s keep at it. See you next Saturday.

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