Day 5, I think...

Again, I can endure hard things. I can muscle through icky stuff. Discomfort, shame, irritation, frustration, exhaustion, sadness, pity, disappointment. None are nice, but all are survivable. I had to do a little exasperation dance as I wrestled with the urge to just have a couple shots, but I came out on top. It helps that all we have in the house at the moment is whiskey and I’m not a whiskey drinker. I can’t say I would be so strong if it had been vodka or a bottle of chardonnay. But these are baby steps.

This time, I focused on a nice fat cup of hot chocolate. I’ve been preparing for this. I found some instant DARK hot chocolate at the store yesterday. Plus, some chocolate syrup. Because I want to make sure it’s chocolatey enough. And then, because I have a sissy mouth and can’t handle the hot lava boiling temperature from the tea kettle, I added some of my chilled sweetened creamer. Yum. Yes, this will do nicely. Might add a bit more chocolate syrup next time, but right now I’m good. I have the utter satisfaction and almost elation (kind of a high!) with another sober day on the books. And the hot chocolate is icing on the cake, as it were.

Here’s to staying strong and to chocolate.